Wednesday, August 18, 2021

dear diary: I don't want any drama

9. dear diary i don't want any drama
outfit details:

1. lion patch graphic hoodie, from h&m.
2. pussy bow shirt, from nordstrom rack.
3. super skinny jeans, from pull & bear.
4. , wade essence sneakers, from li-ning .
5.rings, from h&m.

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A funny thing happened this month: a (good?) friend of mine blocked me on social media because his boyfriend (who I've never met but have only heard bad things of) felt jealous and didn't want us to be friends. I've never been good with understanding jealousy but I know that I didn't have any romantic interest in him, he was just my friend that liked anime and that I had a good time talking to. Yet, when I confronted him about it (because, truth be told, it kinda hurts to get blocked by a friend) ,he just told me something like: you know how he is, can't be helped, and didn't actually do anything. Cool.

But this is not the end of the story, another friend blocked me too (although this was more of an acquaintance than a close friend, but whatever) because we had conflicting opinions on fashion, ON FASHION... I honestly don't know what drove him to block me and, this time around, I chose not to care and not confront him about it. It feels very strange tho... And I don't know if this is growth or being mature or what, but, I don't want any drama so I'm choosing to let both of them go. I'm done fighting for people who clearly have no problem with kicking me out of their lives. Like I said, I don't want any drama in my life, I have enough things going on and this kind of conflict is just so not worth it at this point.

// Algo curioso sucedió este mes: un (¿buen?) amigo me bloqueó en redes sociales porque su novio (a quien nunca he conocido pero sólo he escuchado cosas malas de) se sintió celoso y no quiso que fuéramos amigos. Nunca he sido bueno entendiendo los celos pero sé que yo no tenía ningún interés romántico en él, él era sólo mi amigo al que le gustaba el anime y con quien disfrutaba platicar. Aúna sí, cuando lo confronté al respecto (porque, siendo honestos, medio sí duele que un amigo de bloquee), él sólo me dijo algo como: ya sabes cómo es, ni modo, y no hizo nada, NADA. Súper padre.

Pero la historia no termina aquí, otro amigo me bloqueó también (aunque éste era más un conocido que un buen amigo, pero ajá) porque tuvimos opiniones en conflicto hablando de moda, DE MODA... Honestamente no entiendo qué lo orilló a bloquearme y, esta vez, elegí no confrontarlo al respecto, dejé que no me importara. Se siente raro, eso sí... Y no sé si esto es crecimiento o madurez o qué, pero, no quiero drama así que estoy eligiendo dejar ir a ambos. Estoy harto de luchar por gente que claramente no tiene problema sacándome de sus vidas. Como dije, no quiero drama en mi vida, tengo suficientes cosas sucediendo y este tipo de conflictos simplemente no vale la pena a estas alturas.

Love always,
Henry.

currently listening: heize - on rainy days.

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