Thursday, July 9, 2015

The Beauty of the End

The Beauty of The End
The Beauty of The End 3 I'm wearing:

1. Fedora in gray, from Zara.
2. Color block tank top in yellow and gray, from H&M.
3. Leather pants in black, from Pull & Bear.
4. Suede desert boots in gray, also from Pull & Bear.
5. Bracelets, from Asos, Pull & Bear, Codes Combine and H&M.
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Hey there! In many ways, being free could also mean letting go of all your anchors. This is a practice I've been doing lately and, although sad and heart-breaking, it could be very liberating. Let me talk you through this a bit: I've been in love, unrequited love, and that was tiresome. You have no idea how much I've suffered because of that (or maybe you do, but I truly hope you've never felt like that before). 

It came to me that I was in love with the idea of being love, with the hope of a fantasy coming true. I used to think that my soulmate would realize that I was there, the whole time; I was hoping that things would work just like in romantic comedies, you know? Where the underdog becomes leading man and the girl realizes he was there all along and they live happily ever after. That rarely happens  in real life and, certainly, hasn't happened to me. 

Now, I'm choosing free as my way of life. And with that choice, the idea of shutting doors and paths appears too. I had to let go of the fantasy that I was in love with, understanding that the people in those dreams were not worthy of my affection. It hurts, certainly, and it hurts a lot but, everyday, I feel a little better, I feel like I'm not drowning and that's amazing. That, my friends, is the beauty of the end and it gives you the freedom to hope for a brighter tomorrow.

// ¡Hola! En muchas formas, ser libre puede significar también soltarse de las anclas. Esto es algo que he estado haciendo últimamente y, aunque es triste y me rompe el corazón, puede ser muy liberador. Déjenme hablar un poco al respecto: he estado enamorado, sin ser correspondido, y eso cansa mucho. No tienen idea de cuánto he sufrido por eso (o tal vez lo sepan, pero en serio espero que nunca se hayan tenido que sentir así antes).

Me di cuenta que estaba enamorado con la idea de estar enamorado, con las esperanza de una fantasía volviéndose realidad. Solía pensar que mi alma gemela se daría cuenta de que yo estuve ahí, todo el tiempo; esperaba que las cosas funcionarían como en las comedias románticas, ¿saben? Donde el personaje menos exitoso se convierte en el ganador y la principal se da cuenta de que él estuvo ahí para ella y viven felices por siempre. Eso casi nunca sucede en la vida real y, claramente, no me ha pasado a mí.

Ahora, elijo libre como mi estilo de vida. Y con esa decisión, la idea de cerrar puertas y ciclos aparece también. Tuve que dejar ir la fantasía de la que me enamoré, entendiendo que la gente en esos sueños no era digna de mi afecto. Duele, por supuesto, y duele mucho pero, cada día, me siento un poquito mejor, siento que ya no me estoy ahogando y eso es increíble. Eso, mis amigos, es la belleza de los finales y te da la oportunidad de esperar un mejor y más brillante futuro.
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Love always,
Hen.

Photographer: Danny G.

4 comments:

  1. great well-written post!
    such a stylish look!

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  2. Your outfit is sooo sick. I love it so much.



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