Sunday, April 21, 2019

I Still Have To Tell My Story

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I'm wearing: 

1. Wool coat, from H&M.
2. Blue sweatshirt, from Lee Cooper.
3. Super skinny jeans in black, from Pull & Bear.
4. Chelsea boots in black leather, from Frank Wright. 
5. Rings, from H&M.
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If you've been coming back here for a while, you already know that each month comes with its own theme, one that works itself through all the posts that go live during those thirty days; when I choose the monthly theme, I have a certain scope of what I'll talk about, but life has a funny way of always giving me a bit more to tell than what I originally planned. April has been all about commitment and today I was talking to my sister about the hardships of being a blogger and YouTuber, mostly monetary, but I also told her that not because the industry in Mexico (my main area of work) is tainted it means that I'll give up.

I feel like I still have so much to tell you guys, so much to write about, so many videos to shoot. Every now and then I face creative block, I get stuck and frustrated because (I'm not ashamed to admit it) my content isn't always as good as I want it to be, sometimes that's due to financial restrictions, not having enough enthusiasm, lack of support and sponsorships, you name it. But yes, the thing is, I'm usually contempt with what I post online but a bunch of times I feel like it could've been a lot better. 

The internet world is very unpredictable, sometimes it's not about the effort or the message you try to convey, it's more about your looks, connections, money, but I try to not think too much about that. For a few weeks now, I haven't even looked at how many likes my photos on Instagram are getting because (algorithm or not) I know that I won't be satisfied with the results (even when I'm proud of the product I presented), but I know that a number of likes or followers doesn't define or dictate who I am, so I feel this sort of peace in my mind when I forget about the numbers, haha. I still have to tell more of my story, I still got a lot to say and to give to the world and, as long as there's someone out there looking my way, I will keep on creating, keep on committing to my dreams. 

// Si son asiduos de este blog, ya sabrán que cada mes viene con su propio tema, uno que se entrelaza en todos los posts que suben durante esos treinta días; cuando elijo el tema mensual, tengo cierta noción de lo que quiero hablar, pero la vida tiene una forma curiosa de siempre darme más qué contar que lo que planeé originalmente. Abril ha sido sobre compromiso y justo hoy hablaba con mi hermana sobre las dificultades de ser blogger y YouTuber, principalmente de dinero, pero también le dije que no porque la industria en México (mi área principal de trabajo) esté manchada significa que me voy a rendir. 

Siento que aún tengo tanto qué contarles amigos, tanto por escribir, tantos videos pro grabar. De vez en cuando me enfrento a bloqueos creativos, me siento atorado y frustrado porque (no me da pena admitirlo) mi contenido no siempre es tan bueno como me gustaría que fuera, a veces eso es por restricciones financieras, no tener suficiente entusiasmo, falta de apoyo y patrocinios, mil cosas. Pero sí, la cosa es, usualmente me siento conforme con lo que publico en línea pero muchas veces siento que pudo ser bastante mejor.

El mundo del internet es muy impredecible, a veces no se trata del esfuerzo o el mensaje que trates de llevar al mundo, es más sobre tu aspecto físico, conexiones, dinero, pero trato de no pensar demasiado en eso. Por algunas semanas no me he fijado en cuántos likes tienen mis fotos en Instagram porque (algoritmo o no) sé que no me voy a sentir satisfecho con los resultados (aún cuando me siento satisfecho con el producto que presenté), pero sé que un número de likes o seguidores no define ni dice quién soy, así que siento esta rara paz mental cuando no pienso en los números, jaja. Aún tengo mucho de mi historia qué contar, muchas cosas qué decir y dar al mundo y, mientras haya alguien viendo hacia acá, seguiré creando, seguiré comprometido con mis sueños.
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Love always,
Henry.

Currently listening: Elephante - Closer.

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